adoption

I'm coming to the unpleasant realization that ChinaCare doesn't do any thing with the adoption process.

Meaning, after the kids are adopted, no one knows where they are in a particular country unless if the parents specifically come back and contact CC.

So it's dawning on me that I might not be able to know where Zhi Li will go, and it makes me a little unhappy.

We joked yesterday about adopting her. The director still sees her every day and gives updates on her. I miss holding her and going with her everywhere, outside and inside. I miss how she'd look around at everything, and how she fit in my sling. I miss hearing her cry in the morning and waking up with that "oh goodness, there she goes" feeling.

I miss our family time together